Laurens
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Hello
I went through a Buddhist phase for a couple of years, and I would like to share some thoughts on it with you guys and perhaps generate some kind of discussion on the matter. I no longer consider myself to be Buddhist, for reasons I will go into shortly, however I think it's important to note that there are some great things about Buddhism which deserve to be acknowledged. Buddhism can basically be described as a practice aimed towards the suffering that we all experience in life. The hatred, the anger, the ignorance, the unhappiness, the desire - all people suffer from these things, and Buddhism does provide a lot of useful wisdom on the nature of suffering and ways to end it.
Like the notion of impermanence, all things must pass (as Mr. George Harrison once sang). Emotions, thoughts and feelings are often fleeting, sometimes lingering, but never permanent. All material things like our possessions or our bodies are subject to ageing and decay. This notion is a very useful thing to consider when it comes to coping with stress and suffering.
The other Buddhist notion that appeals to me is Anatta (a pali word that can roughly be translated as 'not-self'). The notion that many of the things that we consider to be ourselves or belonging to us are not actually ours or our 'self'. I doesn't explicitly say there is no 'self', but rather defines the things are are not our self, things such as habits, feelings, patterns of behaviour - these things all stem from sources that could not be considered to be part of what we generally define as our self. They all stem from an intricate web of causes and conditions that go all the way back to the beginning of time.
There are however some things about Buddhism, that caused me to abandon it entirely. The first thing being that there is, or was at least for me a lot of guilt in Buddhism. There are things that, according to Buddhist teaching cause suffering and are frowned upon - this includes stuff like masturbation and sexual desire, drugs and alcohol, etc. I had a hard time with this because, of course being human I like sex... And I also happen to like certain drugs on occasion, and this created a real conflict with my practice of Buddhism. I started to feel really guilty about doing these things. Which for me was creating more suffering than it was relieving. I felt far too much pressure and it had to give one way or the other, and I suddenly just questioned which was causing me more suffering, and I figured it was the guilt caused by my practice of Buddhism ironically.
I also felt a slight brainwashing going on. I would think about Buddhism an awful lot of the time. Or if I thought about anything else it would be from a Buddhist perspective. That kind of scared me on occasion, I felt a bit uneasy with it. In lots of ways I felt more liberated when I abandoned Buddhism.
Then of course there is the issue of whether or not awakening or enlightenment exist. And there are a lot of teachers who say that you can't possibly follow Buddhism completely without believing in literal rebirth - which requires too much faith for me.
All in all I feel I learned a lot from Buddhism, but I also felt a lot very negative things from being a part of a religion.
If you have any specific questions about my personal experience, or Buddhism in general don't hesitate to ask.
So discuss away...
Laurens
I went through a Buddhist phase for a couple of years, and I would like to share some thoughts on it with you guys and perhaps generate some kind of discussion on the matter. I no longer consider myself to be Buddhist, for reasons I will go into shortly, however I think it's important to note that there are some great things about Buddhism which deserve to be acknowledged. Buddhism can basically be described as a practice aimed towards the suffering that we all experience in life. The hatred, the anger, the ignorance, the unhappiness, the desire - all people suffer from these things, and Buddhism does provide a lot of useful wisdom on the nature of suffering and ways to end it.
Like the notion of impermanence, all things must pass (as Mr. George Harrison once sang). Emotions, thoughts and feelings are often fleeting, sometimes lingering, but never permanent. All material things like our possessions or our bodies are subject to ageing and decay. This notion is a very useful thing to consider when it comes to coping with stress and suffering.
The other Buddhist notion that appeals to me is Anatta (a pali word that can roughly be translated as 'not-self'). The notion that many of the things that we consider to be ourselves or belonging to us are not actually ours or our 'self'. I doesn't explicitly say there is no 'self', but rather defines the things are are not our self, things such as habits, feelings, patterns of behaviour - these things all stem from sources that could not be considered to be part of what we generally define as our self. They all stem from an intricate web of causes and conditions that go all the way back to the beginning of time.
There are however some things about Buddhism, that caused me to abandon it entirely. The first thing being that there is, or was at least for me a lot of guilt in Buddhism. There are things that, according to Buddhist teaching cause suffering and are frowned upon - this includes stuff like masturbation and sexual desire, drugs and alcohol, etc. I had a hard time with this because, of course being human I like sex... And I also happen to like certain drugs on occasion, and this created a real conflict with my practice of Buddhism. I started to feel really guilty about doing these things. Which for me was creating more suffering than it was relieving. I felt far too much pressure and it had to give one way or the other, and I suddenly just questioned which was causing me more suffering, and I figured it was the guilt caused by my practice of Buddhism ironically.
I also felt a slight brainwashing going on. I would think about Buddhism an awful lot of the time. Or if I thought about anything else it would be from a Buddhist perspective. That kind of scared me on occasion, I felt a bit uneasy with it. In lots of ways I felt more liberated when I abandoned Buddhism.
Then of course there is the issue of whether or not awakening or enlightenment exist. And there are a lot of teachers who say that you can't possibly follow Buddhism completely without believing in literal rebirth - which requires too much faith for me.
All in all I feel I learned a lot from Buddhism, but I also felt a lot very negative things from being a part of a religion.
If you have any specific questions about my personal experience, or Buddhism in general don't hesitate to ask.
So discuss away...
Laurens