My parents are hypocrites. Let me just start by saying that. Well, they are! They do not understand the concept of practicing what you preach. They act like they want to do more for their congregation, yet they barely go out in field service (knocking on doors). They ramble on and on and ON every SINGLE DAY about how we have to love jehovah and trust him, because he will make this world a paradise. How satan is trying to bring us down and trying to kill us and make us turn away from jehovah. They are utterly oblivious to everything that goes on.
You know what my father said to me today? We were watching the news when a news report on an earthquake in california killed three people. This was today. My father looked at me and said "Matthew 24-7" which says; For nation will rise against nation and kingdom against kingdom, and there will be food shortages and earthquakes in one place after another.
I wanted to kill him. I wanted to rip him apart. He has no problem reminding us how close this system is to the end, but when it comes to doing what the society tells him, he is ignorant. My parents lock us away from being normal teenagers because they think that someone will make this earth perfect if we follow said person and do what his word says, which BY THE WAY tells us that woman should keep their mouth's shut, the earth is flat, the earth is the center of the universe, humans are dust and that we are all evil unless we follow his law. See where im going with this?
But thats not the best part. Oh boy its not. My father, who i would like to think besides on the topic of science in general, is a very smart person. But when he starts to try and tackle a simple question that i asked him, which is "why do scientists keep finding transistory fossils" I lose all respect for him in every way possible. His responses are as follows; Satan is causing them to fake the fossils, they are fakes, evolution is false, im taking you out of the ministry, you are grounded and i will make your life hell if you dont get on board with this.
But heres the thing guys, i love my parents. I do. They have made my life hell, but they do care for me. I have never lacked what i needed. And they are in pain. They want this religion to be true so badly. They want to be perfect and they want to live forever, and i dont know how to explain to them that something they NEED so badly is false. It would break them. They would have no reason to live in their minds. I cant do that to them. I just cant.
I have reached a conclusion in life. I know for a fact that this religon is a fabrication, but they dont. And i dont want them to. I want them to die happy with the thought that they will never feel pain again. But i also think they are brainwashed. They have been trained to think in a way that causes them to block EVERY single piece of information that even BEGINS to refute any doctrine they have learned. And i cant live with myself knowing what i do and still having to attend this bullshit.
I have come to a crossroads where i have to make a decision and make it fast. And at the end of my month of blogging that decision will be made. I need you guys to help me make it. This will start the blog. I will write two blogs each monday and friday for a month in this thread. If anyone cares enough to help me through this i will continue with this. I need your guyses support. Please help me here. I know this was a little freeform but i will straighten it up for fridays entry. Got to sleep now, hope you guys read this.
You know what my father said to me today? We were watching the news when a news report on an earthquake in california killed three people. This was today. My father looked at me and said "Matthew 24-7" which says; For nation will rise against nation and kingdom against kingdom, and there will be food shortages and earthquakes in one place after another.
I wanted to kill him. I wanted to rip him apart. He has no problem reminding us how close this system is to the end, but when it comes to doing what the society tells him, he is ignorant. My parents lock us away from being normal teenagers because they think that someone will make this earth perfect if we follow said person and do what his word says, which BY THE WAY tells us that woman should keep their mouth's shut, the earth is flat, the earth is the center of the universe, humans are dust and that we are all evil unless we follow his law. See where im going with this?
But thats not the best part. Oh boy its not. My father, who i would like to think besides on the topic of science in general, is a very smart person. But when he starts to try and tackle a simple question that i asked him, which is "why do scientists keep finding transistory fossils" I lose all respect for him in every way possible. His responses are as follows; Satan is causing them to fake the fossils, they are fakes, evolution is false, im taking you out of the ministry, you are grounded and i will make your life hell if you dont get on board with this.
But heres the thing guys, i love my parents. I do. They have made my life hell, but they do care for me. I have never lacked what i needed. And they are in pain. They want this religion to be true so badly. They want to be perfect and they want to live forever, and i dont know how to explain to them that something they NEED so badly is false. It would break them. They would have no reason to live in their minds. I cant do that to them. I just cant.
I have reached a conclusion in life. I know for a fact that this religon is a fabrication, but they dont. And i dont want them to. I want them to die happy with the thought that they will never feel pain again. But i also think they are brainwashed. They have been trained to think in a way that causes them to block EVERY single piece of information that even BEGINS to refute any doctrine they have learned. And i cant live with myself knowing what i do and still having to attend this bullshit.
I have come to a crossroads where i have to make a decision and make it fast. And at the end of my month of blogging that decision will be made. I need you guys to help me make it. This will start the blog. I will write two blogs each monday and friday for a month in this thread. If anyone cares enough to help me through this i will continue with this. I need your guyses support. Please help me here. I know this was a little freeform but i will straighten it up for fridays entry. Got to sleep now, hope you guys read this.