Hey there guys,
I guess I should introduce myself a little.
I'm an atheist fresh out of the closet if you will. More on the "out of the closet" part later. Prepare for wall o' text
-I am in currently majoring in ASL interpreting for the Deaf. However, this is most likely going to be changed to a double major out of either computer sciences, organic chemistry, or physics (I wanna get my ass over to LHC).
-Living in Arizona
-I love my video games and honestly picking through science videos or research journals. My friends usually laugh at me for the latter as they believe to be weird I find studying a hobby. Additionally, I dabble in disc golf, recreational shooting, hunting, and debating (mostly fundy Christians)
Onto the out of the closet part of the spiel. I was raised in a fundamentalist Christian household right from the get go, yet even from my toddler days I questioned the theology being rammed down by throat. As a 4 year old I somewhat remember telling my mom during a Bible study "Mommy, I think this book was written by someone a long time ago to make a lot of money" (Come to find out, the book was sold for exorbitant sums in ancient times.) Growing up, I attended 1 Catholic school, 3 Baptist schools, and finally homeschooling at the start of high school. Many around here might think "Oh god, homeschooling", but this is where my ember for curiosity exploded into an inferno. Rather than strict lectures provided by my parents I was handed a textbook and homework while I had a laptop I bought in years past (The computer is where my ember began), and left me to my own devices to understand the material. Understandably there were many times I had to consult the internet to understand the material, and at first I didn't do well until I learned to evaluate sources. Now, my parents being the Christians they were handed me creationist science and Christian based history books/homework. I regularly failed the homework for these classes even though the sources I was pulling information from seemed extremely reputable since I was pulling from state colleges or research journals. After many failed grades I made a hypothesis about the books surrounding it, and proceeded to pull all of my material from Christian websites (they almost never had citations other than the reasoning agreeing with the bible.) To my astonishment I immediately saw my grades shoot up to A's. At this point there was no going back, I had to fact check biblical reasoning to compare it with modern research, or actual historical records. Every single time I found a disagreement, which was especially so in the areas of science, the non-biblical material always seemed logically sound.
I was left with no other conclusion than turning to question the bible itself. What I found completely surprised me, I found nothing but inconsistencies (Was it 66, 70, or 75 of Jacob's males that went to Egypt?) and more surprisingwere the moral grievances. The more I read with a skeptical mind, the less I believed in the validity of the bible. In some way I wanted to disprove my line of reasoning since I didn't want to go to hell. I consulted my Grandmother, a creation biology teacher, and she could not provide a single substantiated fact for creation other than hypotheses that agreed with the bible. I of course fact checked these and discovered that observational science never lined up. On questions of morality and contradiction I consulted my pastor uncle and my own mother. They didn't even let me present my questions, I was immediately shut up and told to have faith. I was desperate for answers and no one on the faith side could provide me with a single reason. However, every single time I had a question and asked science about it I could immediately find ten different places with the answer. I was finally made the following decision I later heard echoed from AronRa which is "If I can't be provided one reason to believe it, then that is every reason not to." My abandonment of faith curiously ignited a fire of pure wonderment for the unexplained parts of the universe and I had to know more. At this point I was in college studying to be an ASL interpreter with my girlfriend (luckily she already "got it"), and my explorations started with simply reading science journals for fun. I then stumbled upon the wonderful works of AronRa, Thunderf00t, and Logicked. I'm burning through their videos with a rapid pace which got me to thinking. when I run out of discovered material to read where will I go next? It was then that I decided I needed to be on the frontier helping to discover these things myself. I told my parents back home of my new choices and was met with indifference which was better than I hoped for. Over the holidays I have returned home to visit, and was met with what seemed like coldness in the air. My mom tried to bring up the bible and why I needed it, and I responded with the problems I found during my earlier inspections once more. I won't go into much detail because its pretty fucking hurtful, but everything I said was twisted, reversed, and brutalized. No matter what facts I rained down, I was essentially shouted over and told to shut up (even though she started it.) At a family gathering she somehow found a way to work in the exchange, and decided to pretty much lie about the entire discussion to my family with a very obvious desire to paint my me as completely rude (I'm fine with people living in fantasy land, just don't make me believe it.) I tried to defend myself, but she and the rest of the family screamed over me. The damage was done, there was nothing I could say to bring reality to light, and I am now the black sheep of the family. This is quite astounding considering I work full time, pulling two majors pretty soon, already an A-student, and live on my own which the poster child cousin of the family has utterly failed to do.
I doubt the likes of AronRa will read this, but thanks for igniting my curiosity even if it cost me something dearly. Ass
I guess I should introduce myself a little.
I'm an atheist fresh out of the closet if you will. More on the "out of the closet" part later. Prepare for wall o' text
-I am in currently majoring in ASL interpreting for the Deaf. However, this is most likely going to be changed to a double major out of either computer sciences, organic chemistry, or physics (I wanna get my ass over to LHC).
-Living in Arizona
-I love my video games and honestly picking through science videos or research journals. My friends usually laugh at me for the latter as they believe to be weird I find studying a hobby. Additionally, I dabble in disc golf, recreational shooting, hunting, and debating (mostly fundy Christians)
Onto the out of the closet part of the spiel. I was raised in a fundamentalist Christian household right from the get go, yet even from my toddler days I questioned the theology being rammed down by throat. As a 4 year old I somewhat remember telling my mom during a Bible study "Mommy, I think this book was written by someone a long time ago to make a lot of money" (Come to find out, the book was sold for exorbitant sums in ancient times.) Growing up, I attended 1 Catholic school, 3 Baptist schools, and finally homeschooling at the start of high school. Many around here might think "Oh god, homeschooling", but this is where my ember for curiosity exploded into an inferno. Rather than strict lectures provided by my parents I was handed a textbook and homework while I had a laptop I bought in years past (The computer is where my ember began), and left me to my own devices to understand the material. Understandably there were many times I had to consult the internet to understand the material, and at first I didn't do well until I learned to evaluate sources. Now, my parents being the Christians they were handed me creationist science and Christian based history books/homework. I regularly failed the homework for these classes even though the sources I was pulling information from seemed extremely reputable since I was pulling from state colleges or research journals. After many failed grades I made a hypothesis about the books surrounding it, and proceeded to pull all of my material from Christian websites (they almost never had citations other than the reasoning agreeing with the bible.) To my astonishment I immediately saw my grades shoot up to A's. At this point there was no going back, I had to fact check biblical reasoning to compare it with modern research, or actual historical records. Every single time I found a disagreement, which was especially so in the areas of science, the non-biblical material always seemed logically sound.
I was left with no other conclusion than turning to question the bible itself. What I found completely surprised me, I found nothing but inconsistencies (Was it 66, 70, or 75 of Jacob's males that went to Egypt?) and more surprisingwere the moral grievances. The more I read with a skeptical mind, the less I believed in the validity of the bible. In some way I wanted to disprove my line of reasoning since I didn't want to go to hell. I consulted my Grandmother, a creation biology teacher, and she could not provide a single substantiated fact for creation other than hypotheses that agreed with the bible. I of course fact checked these and discovered that observational science never lined up. On questions of morality and contradiction I consulted my pastor uncle and my own mother. They didn't even let me present my questions, I was immediately shut up and told to have faith. I was desperate for answers and no one on the faith side could provide me with a single reason. However, every single time I had a question and asked science about it I could immediately find ten different places with the answer. I was finally made the following decision I later heard echoed from AronRa which is "If I can't be provided one reason to believe it, then that is every reason not to." My abandonment of faith curiously ignited a fire of pure wonderment for the unexplained parts of the universe and I had to know more. At this point I was in college studying to be an ASL interpreter with my girlfriend (luckily she already "got it"), and my explorations started with simply reading science journals for fun. I then stumbled upon the wonderful works of AronRa, Thunderf00t, and Logicked. I'm burning through their videos with a rapid pace which got me to thinking. when I run out of discovered material to read where will I go next? It was then that I decided I needed to be on the frontier helping to discover these things myself. I told my parents back home of my new choices and was met with indifference which was better than I hoped for. Over the holidays I have returned home to visit, and was met with what seemed like coldness in the air. My mom tried to bring up the bible and why I needed it, and I responded with the problems I found during my earlier inspections once more. I won't go into much detail because its pretty fucking hurtful, but everything I said was twisted, reversed, and brutalized. No matter what facts I rained down, I was essentially shouted over and told to shut up (even though she started it.) At a family gathering she somehow found a way to work in the exchange, and decided to pretty much lie about the entire discussion to my family with a very obvious desire to paint my me as completely rude (I'm fine with people living in fantasy land, just don't make me believe it.) I tried to defend myself, but she and the rest of the family screamed over me. The damage was done, there was nothing I could say to bring reality to light, and I am now the black sheep of the family. This is quite astounding considering I work full time, pulling two majors pretty soon, already an A-student, and live on my own which the poster child cousin of the family has utterly failed to do.
I doubt the likes of AronRa will read this, but thanks for igniting my curiosity even if it cost me something dearly. Ass